I guess we feel that we need to choose a certain path to follow in our lives. This may include studying, marriage, a certain career path, children and so much more. The one thing we can be sure of is the uncertainty of it all! Where we begin our journey is mostly the same as where we end it. The bit in between is where the fun happens. I refer back to that saying “if it does not kill you, it will make you stronger.” Although in the face of adversity it feels easier to give up than carry on!
Where I find myself today is questioning this: am I enough? This is a very difficult and somewhat introspective question. Whether I will ever find an answer is questionable but I am up to the challenge of trying.
I have watched my daughters growing and see the pressure they face in the world today. This to is apparent in our lives as adults and I find myself feeling like I need to have more and do better. If I had to be truthful and ask myself where I thought I would be at this point in my life, would it be here? It is a very difficult question to answer, I would have to say yes and no.
I certainly expected myself to get married and have children. However have I ‘failed’ to achieve the other side of the dream I had for my life? I know that in looking at what I haven’t achieved high lights what I have. I remember hearing someone say that “I cannot let my children see me, not realising my dreams”. What a powerful and rather sobering thought. I guess the dreams we once had can change over time to come in line with the situation we find ourselves in. My journey may have begun as one path but I guess God has other plans for my life. I think it is deciding not to fight destiny but embrace it!
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