At this point in my life the most difficult thing for me, is to relinquish control over my destiny. All of me, body and soul would like to determine who I am going to be and where I am going. I am slowly realising that actually, I am not in control.
This could sound quite bizarre to some people but it’s not to say that I do not make choices and follow a certain path but all these things are pre-determined, by a far higher power. I guess it’s like trying to paint in the dark, you have the vision of what you would like the painting to look like but you are unable to determine the colours and you cannot see the canvas. Yes, the result would probably be a complete mess! I guess God is like the light, He helps you see what the end product should look like, and He gives you the plan and the skills to get there. You just need to be willing.
A great deal of what we experience in life is beyond our understanding and fighting destiny, is not a comfortable place to be. So my challenge is to take a step back and let God work in my life, however hard this may be for me.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11